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Nov. 1st, 2018 02:54 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
phantasm13In years passed I have generally attempted the minim nanowrimo with some success. In other words I set a word amount I needed to meet each day that was less than what is required for the full Nanowrimo (write 50,000 words in a month).
Due to the changing of moderators etc of that LJ group I didn't participate last year and apparently that means I have been removed permanently from the group.
A friend on Facebook is doing the Nanowrimo and I commented that I wish I thought I could do it, but I lacked inspiration. At his encouragement I am attempting the Nanowrimo, even if I don't get to 50,000 words.
My strained ribs and very busy work schedule, plus being a Mom and home schooling probably won't allow for 50,000 words in one month. But as my friend send this is about making the time to put words to a page and let the rest unfold.
I have been avoiding writing for awhile. Writing for me, means being vulnerable and do so lets many demons in. I need to start working to changing that line of thought as to return back to what used to be my one love. When I felt full of passion and inspiration and a constant need to write.
But as memories unraveled, I left my ex and I struggled to put words to paper for story. I'd start and stop or push it away because that meant going into my emotions as I write from them. I don't know how to explain it otherwise.
So it's time to stop letting my anxiety and PTSD block me from my former love. I don't expect this will be easy. The want to delete absolutely every single word I write will be hard. But if I don't write how can I get the story out? If I don't write how can I get better. I am so rusty. 7 years since I last worked on anything beyond RPG stuff and that fizzled out because of me. The rough draft is supposed to be rough. Then ideas can be flushed out and expanded upon.
328 words for November 1st. -on a story I began so long ago. Not many, but a start.
Due to the changing of moderators etc of that LJ group I didn't participate last year and apparently that means I have been removed permanently from the group.
A friend on Facebook is doing the Nanowrimo and I commented that I wish I thought I could do it, but I lacked inspiration. At his encouragement I am attempting the Nanowrimo, even if I don't get to 50,000 words.
My strained ribs and very busy work schedule, plus being a Mom and home schooling probably won't allow for 50,000 words in one month. But as my friend send this is about making the time to put words to a page and let the rest unfold.
I have been avoiding writing for awhile. Writing for me, means being vulnerable and do so lets many demons in. I need to start working to changing that line of thought as to return back to what used to be my one love. When I felt full of passion and inspiration and a constant need to write.
But as memories unraveled, I left my ex and I struggled to put words to paper for story. I'd start and stop or push it away because that meant going into my emotions as I write from them. I don't know how to explain it otherwise.
So it's time to stop letting my anxiety and PTSD block me from my former love. I don't expect this will be easy. The want to delete absolutely every single word I write will be hard. But if I don't write how can I get the story out? If I don't write how can I get better. I am so rusty. 7 years since I last worked on anything beyond RPG stuff and that fizzled out because of me. The rough draft is supposed to be rough. Then ideas can be flushed out and expanded upon.
328 words for November 1st. -on a story I began so long ago. Not many, but a start.
