Long Weekend
Sep. 4th, 2018 06:44 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
phantasm13This past long weekend was long not because it was Labour Day weekend but for the fact that I started to miscarry on Wednesday.
It was early enough that my body did its thing on its own, albeit painfully.
No, it was too early for anything much to have grown.
Emotionally it sucks.
All I ever wanted to be is a Mom. I wanted six kids. I have one.
All William wants (has been asking since he was 2) is a baby brother or sister.
I know James wants a child of his blood.
And my body won't cooperate.
I am pretending to be okay.
I'm not.
It was early enough that my body did its thing on its own, albeit painfully.
No, it was too early for anything much to have grown.
Emotionally it sucks.
All I ever wanted to be is a Mom. I wanted six kids. I have one.
All William wants (has been asking since he was 2) is a baby brother or sister.
I know James wants a child of his blood.
And my body won't cooperate.
I am pretending to be okay.
I'm not.
